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Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Why I Want To Be Broken

This devotional was inspired by Jars of Clay’s song Sad Clown.

Break me daily!

Oh, how those words used to frighten me. And sometimes, they still do. But I’ve learned to expect my daily breaking, and dare I say, ask for it.

Because I am self-centered, self-absorbed, and try to be self-sustaining. Without help. Without others. Without God. Until I am humbled, broken—daily.

I’m guessing there are many reading this thinking, “She’s nuts! Why would anyone long to be broken daily.”

Why indeed?

So let me answer. Daily breakage is better than the cracking off of rock that’s been hardened over years. That requires a big hammer and a heavy hand. Daily breaking is more of a shaping by the fingers of the One who loves me most despite my shortcomings, failures and sins against Him. He sees through all the paint I use to disguise myself, for the beauty only He can envision. And His love for me is all-consuming, ever-enduring. He wants my best and is prepared to make me just that. He may break me, but He does it only to straighten that which I’ve made crooked. And given there’s lots crooked here, it’s a regular job.

Isaiah 64:8
Yet, O Lord, you are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter.

Yes, the clown is another one of my daughter’s extraordinary pieces of art Smile.

How is God molding you?

Posts you might like:

Who Are You To God?

Finally Being Able To Be Me, By Staci Stallings

Signs of God


  1. I need God to break me daily to his will. So many times I sit weeping because I feel so much a failure. So day after day I struggle. I served God 54 years so you see it is not because I am not grounded in his word. I changed with menopause and find myself crying so much more and I hate it.
    But I still love God with all my being.

    1. Squiresj, God is not only breaking, He’s shaping. Yes it’s hard, and yet I know He’s making you better and better. Let’s pray! Dear Lord, “squiresj” is feeling the breaking, and it hurts! She longs to know you more so she seeks You in Your word. Now, help her to feel You in her heart. Please, Lord, help her to feel Your Joy and Your Love and the purpose of the moldings You’ve shaped her through. Help her to understand the changes her body is making and how to manage them effectively, because it’s hard! But You are bigger than these changes.
      I have to tell you, I am a big fan of tears! I’ve come to see them as a necessary tool. I have a post, http://livingthebodyofchrist.blogspot.com/2012/01/jesus-wept.html, about crying to God. You may want to check it out. Many hate tears because they think it’s a sign of weakness. I don’t. It’s how I stay strong. I throw my sorrow on the One who bares them best. He will carry them and sometimes He will carry me. And that’s not just okay, that’s as it should be. So let Him!
      As far as feeling a failure ... without God, we all are. With Him we can't be. It may be you don't see the fruits of your work. I have another post about a man who inspired a mega-church but didn't know it. http://livingthebodyofchrist.blogspot.com/2011/12/great-and-small-part-2the-man-who.html. Sometimes we have to trust He's using us, even when we don't see it. God Bless!!!

  2. Nice post Connie.
    I was told a few weeks ago that I was "self sufficient". Yes that's true and it's not always a good thing. It's why I get stressed and try to make things happen rather than believing that God will do something. It a fighter thing. This last month I feel God has broken that hard rock in me and shown me that it's okay to need help, it's okay to not have all the answers and that I no longer need to fight - God has already done that. I have more peace now than I have ever had. It's great to be broken.


    1. That's so good to hear, Sally. There is a freedom in letting things go to God.